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had mood swing today

Saturday, March 24, 2007

i dun noe what had happened to me today...
i felt like i was real possessed...
i did not had a enjoyable training today...
i felt totally stressed up....
maybe because this week had a real tensed week..
with lots of activities pack in this whole week....
i cried...
and my eyes are red....
for the start i stepped into the hall,
i gave everyone a glum face...
well, i'm not angry wif anyone...
i just wanted to be serious....
and i just dun have the mood to play today....
and so later coach decided to split suying and me up. to partner others,
i was like sian....
but i'm not angry wif coach for separating us....
well, is common when we play wif different partner....
but i dun noe why.....maybe i just too stressed...
i wanted to vent all my anger and stress.
but i dun noe wat happened to suying....
i think she did not wan to play wif huiwen..
so she anyhow played.....
later coach asked us to go his side...
he wants to talk to us.
so he talked, talked, talked and talked
and we listened listened listened and listen
and at the same time... we cried cried cried and cried...
and to a point of time....
i was like so angry tat i dashed into the toilet
i cried like mad...
and i kicked and slam the door real hard!
and .........
lots more going on... but shall tell u until here.. haahaa
and so sorry everyone... i know i'm wrong today....
pls forgive me....
i felt tat i am collasping....
i can't hang on anymore.......
and i'm sure i have no attitude problems...
is just tat i'm too too too STRESSFUL
and i promise i will stop all my ridiculous actions....!
and so sorry coach....
i'm not angry wif you....
i know u mean us well....
but u can't help even if u are willing to help me....
thank you for ur concern =)
give me some time to recover my real stephanie....
and from today onwards...
i will work real hard ......
and be a good player....
i must be STRONG....
STEPHANIE JIAYOU... ALL THE WAY...
GO! GO! GO!