I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you didYou fell so hard
I learned the hard way, to never let it get that far
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of youI am afraid
I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake a smile, a laugh
Every day of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with
Because of youI never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of youI learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of youI find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraidI watched you die
I heard you cry
Every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry
In the middle of the night
Over the same damn thing
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I tried my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid
Because of you
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This song just brought back so much memories, that was like 3 years back. The times we were all together, struggling for our big PSLE. The times we spend together in school, in class, staying back after school for supplementary classes and remedials. The joy, all the fun we had. This song was so popular and hot in that year, we had it as our class blog song. I find myself reminiscing alot nowadays. I dont know why. But just kept looking back. Well, the good memories are always worth to be kept deep down inside your heart, the awful ones, dump them away. Yes, while reminiscing, don't forget to move on in life. Put down the past and move to reach for greater heights. Time just move so quickly, 3 years in Fuhua. How fast can it be! One more year when 'O' comes and I'll graduate. wow. I hope Im all ready and fight my way out of fuhua with pleasing results. 'WORK HARD' i say.

Say you hate him. And maybe you'll feel better.



{edited/9.16pm}

I had Chemistry craze for today. I actually did chemistry for the whole day! I can't believe it. Now my head's filled with all the acids, alkalines, salts and all those ionic stuffs, blah blah. haha. Oh, i really did chemistry, somehow, there's question marks up there. Blanks here and there in both chemistry worksheet that Ms Lin gave. I shall take my initiative and ask her when i get back to school on tuesday. hmph. I can say that Im almost done with my homework. (grinning :D) Almost done, not yet done. Is different.

Oh yes, I caught another Hong Kong drama just now. Bravo. How should I say? HHmmm. complicating at first, scary?! Touching i must say, I cried! laughoutloud. A good show. I'll continue catching it the next weekend. Like finally, I get to have a chance to sit infront of the squarish box and catch some nice shows. Im not done with it, Dad's watching 龙虎门. Yea yea, Im not going to miss it. Dad says is a another good show. Well, normally what dad catches are really commendable movies, so in another words, im watching it later!

I just sms-ed Mr Loh and asked him about EOY exams. He says the last topic to be tested is Energy work power. It means that we have a total of FOURTEEN 14 chapters to digest. hahaha.
how great would it be. fourteen.

hey hey. Did I tell you that my phone died on me last friday. and i ill-treated my phone by hitting it like a mad girl, who some how lost control and smack the phone real hard. I guess this is kinda exaggerated. But nevermind, is fine now. 2 days of reservice. Is back, my baby. haha. I miss it like mad shit. lol. I miss my calculator as well. Hoping that the white calculator dont die on me. If not, I won't be able to do math revisions.

Argh. the real mugging starts tomorrow. EH. It doesnt make sense, cos i've already been mugging real hard for the past 2 days. So, there i go, MUG MUG MUG. please do not disturb me.

one more thing. I had a 'nightmare', a bad dream. I dreamt about something this afternoon when i was taking a nap. This dream just dont make sense, is not logical at all. In my dream, I have a elder brother, and i dreamt of me as a 5 or 6 years old innocent girl. HAHA. shitshit. I dont know how to continue, but i just remember that my brother forced me to drink some corrosive stuff and the situation seems like we both are committing suicide. I was forced to commit sucide in the first place. I even saw my brother's lip rotting, cos the drink is corrosive. lol. no sense right. I was still pondering about it when i woke up. and and and. sorry i cant recall anymore. I think i went to find my mom for help or what in my dream. The whole picture of this dream was like i have a very unhappy family. haha. In any case, I have a very HAPPY FAMILY in real life. I am leading a good life with my family. thats a fact! OHWELL. i seldom have sweet dreams or nightmares. but if i do have one, it only happens once in a blue moon, and all those dreams are just nonsensical and ridiculous, i guess they will never happen. And I can forget my dream in just less than a day or 12 hours. HAHA. The fact that this dream cause me to skip 30 minutes of my nap. I planned to wake up at 4pm, but then i woke up at 3.30pm, because of this stupid dream. No more dreams for tonight. please.

I enjoy crapping.