How do I even begin?

At this very moment, I feel very tired, very sian-ned, very sad, very relief, very worried. Not very happy.

YES YES YES! Common test 1 is over! The distressing thing about it was my results. Though I haven't gotten back every single paper, but I already have this feeling that I didn't do very well for any papers. So blah. Okay, nevermind about it. Is O level which I am looking at now! It is said that test period is over, but in actual fact, this saying is wrong. We still have both emath and amath test next week. "I want to cry". Sometimes, I am very worried about myself, whether there'll be a moment when I 'study out of my mind.' and do some stupid like committing suicide. HAHA. funny la. I think you won't get to see that. Another matter which really dampens our weekend mood is weekend homework. 2 emath worksheet, 1 composition, 1 周记, physics workbook, history SBQ ws. Sometimes, it isn't me who loves complaining, but I just can't help it, you see. Not like, I love doing so right.

This place is getting quieter and quieter. Hmmm. So what on earth is happening around me? When can I catch a movie, go for good meal, shop till my pockets burn? I finally find a chance to take MRT train today. It's been 2 months, ever since I board on a train. haha. Sounds like a country pumpkin. Head down to check out Concorde Hotel (I hope I spelt correctly). Not bad, but there are always better choices out there waiting for us. Will check it out soon.

Hey! I am very frustrated because of my amath notebook and homework book. I can't recall where I placed them. In school or at home. I search my shelves, my desk and drawers. I see no sign. So I really hope they are in school, and I can't wait to bring myself to school now and dig them out so that I sleep at ease tonight. I can't lose them!!!

On the bus, looking out the window, I was thinking about what went wrong all these while. Didn't I put in enough effort? But why no matter how much was done, I get very little or even nothing in return. "OH SIGH!" What should I do? What is the next step to take? Let me see....


There's nothing I need to do to show you what I've done. Because I know, I did what I can, whatever was within my reach. I don't need anyone to prove me right of what I've been doing all along.

HEY SEE! IM FINE :D