Blogs that I love visiting have all been privatised. This is so not good. Now I have less places to go now wherever Im online.

I feel so troubled now. Even though, at this point of time, I should be enjoying myself like what I told myself earlier on. But I can't find the mood to do so now. Sometimes, it isn't really good if one thinks too much about their own future. Yet, it's so wrong, if you don't even think about it! Now, I am thinking about what I need to do tomorrow. It's a 5-day break, and it's also the opportunity given to continue stuffing myself with knowledge and content about history and sciences. I have a lot more work to do regarding my chemistry and physics. I seriously know how poor my 2 sciences are, so not unless Os is over, I must not slacken.

No matter what excuses I gave myself, I still find the previously compiled notes really unappealing. And so, I am going to redo all of my physics and chemistry notes starting tomorrow. Im comtemplating, which colour pen should I use to write my notes. Blue or black? I must be crazy to even mind and take care about these slightest details.

This is already my third post of the day. The other 2 are at livejournal. Why am I always at a loss of words? (I am stucked) Why should I feel guilty for wasting too much printer ink? Why am I feeling guilty for using so many papers yet, afterall, I dumped them away? I am such a weird person right?

My dad says "don't push yourself too hard". But I find it necessary to do so. Or else, I won't live. City life, I think we have all gotten used to, I find it really hard to change the way I do things now, or the way I live my life. Every minutes and seconds counts. 10 hours of sleep and another 10 hours of work. I have decided that this will make my saturday.