Oh well, time check, it's 10:30pm now. I've decided to update blog despite my busy schedule with projects, and stuff. Okay. So I shall type as fast as I can, and to feed you as much information as I can think of as I type. Pardon for any grammatical errors etc afterwards.

Alright, should I start off with the first day of school? Okay, first day of school was practically boredom. Lessons were way to slack to imagine. haha. But I think that was a good start afterall. And I stupidly believe that day two will pretty much be the same, but I was proven wrong. 2 assignments came smacking right in my face. And both datelines are next week. Oh well. Should I even be happy? I guess, I should right. I've always been asking for work and more work, you know. Im a super workaholic. Yes. So, I'd rather be super busy than to waste my life away. haha. I've been updating my notebook daily as though it's my dairy. I took down every single thing that has to be done, things that has to be bought or brought. What are the events coming up. What do I need to fulfill, what are the datelines, assignments and stuff. Ohmygod. My head is so bombarded with things I've mentioned above. I realise this is one symptom I get once school starts. These little things never leave my mind for a single moment I guess.

Today is Design Fiesta. Though I think we could make this a greater event, with more participation rate, it was still a good job done by everyone who came down to help and support. I was at the silkscreen booth. Apparently, things weren't as easy as I thought, we turn out to be the more tiring group of people. After the entire event which took me the entire day, I was seriously shag. And I was really unwell, felt a little feverish, but I becoming normal right now, which is fantastic, because I dont want to fall sick when it's only the third day of school. After this post, I shall push myself to do my assignment. By giving myself a little push, I might be able to get back the momentum for assignments. It's really important to search for that very quickly once school reopen. None of us could be lagging behind. Now, I kinda dread thursday, as I need to be awake as early as 6am and get to school by 7:40am to meet my friend and have lesson at 8am. Well, the good thing is, I have lesson till 1pm only. :D hahaha.

Recently, I get to be involved in a lot of things. Life in poly is great, I must say. I like to have fun, who doesnt right. But so do I want to be serious and get things done and feel accomplished at the same time. Don't call me camp chief at anywhere right now. I am only a camp chief when we are having meetings and during camp. Other than that, Im still a normal self, with no other status. I can't say Im not facing any stress right now, because I'll be lying you if I say no. I have my own projects, assignments, camps stuff, dinner and dance comm, these are just within school. Other than all these that I've mentioned, I still have work during weekends, I still wanna have my precious family time with loved ones and also my dear friends. Everything has to be calculated inside my life. Every single thing is important. I can't afford to forsake and neglect any of it. Perhaps, to me, this is just mere stress. If I can't even handle and tackle what's given to me right now, then what else do I have to say when Im in this competitive society. I'll be nothing, I guarantee. People who knows me, they'll understand that Im a person who loves challenges, but at the same time, I preferably do things I have total confidence in. I am never the person who prefers standing at the same spot, doing the same thing over and over again. If there's a word to describe me, I think I am a greedy person, probably, in a good way. I just wanna get better each time, thus, I push myself crazily, for I want to know how far I can go and achieve. And from there, I pick myself up again and go further.

I told myself, this shall be the last post about you. After thinking about it today, looking at so many exciting things which I see as priorities in my life awaiting for me, I think you are not so important. This is why I never value love. It never give me a sense of security. And being a practical person, I value myself more than anyone/anything else. Not to be materialistic, but I think money gives me a sense of security than you do. Afterall, I don't even know how you feel, what you like and all. And Im asking myself, why am I pursuing all these, what am I actually going after, why am I wasting my time, and why do I have to feel so hurt each time. Yes. I really need to let go and put things to rest, move on and be someone whom I wish to be ten years down the road. I promise, I won't write anymore sad and redundant posts.

Right now, I only want to be a super woman.