After much consideration, I've made up my mind for not going with the crowd. Like what my aunt told me, I shouldn't be following what my friends want, rather, I should ask myself what I want. What is it that I want to achieve. After all, we'll end up in different places in many years down the road. What we're going after in life, will always differ, hence, there is no point in sticking to friends. Decision still lies within me.

Today is another family day for me. Spent the whole time with my parents, eating breakfast, going to market, had lunch, walk around. As usual, I eat a lot and crap a lot. hahaha.

I think once the school start, I will give myself immense stress all over again. I don't know if Im excited for school now or not. Feels like a lazy bum now after such a long holiday. It's not a good idea to slack for that long. It'll take quite a bit of time to adjust myself to the hectic life again.

I don't know what to feel right now. Not that I am having much troubles, but I just find them insignificant. After all, I am very sure I can do without it. Just that I needed some time to think about it and bring those thoughts somewhere else out of reach. You know it's hard to fight yourself. I'd rather let my mind take control than to have my heart taking the lead. Yet, again, it seems almost overpowering. But I know, there is a way, this is not the first time. And now, I know, I've never learnt my mistakes, history keep repeating itself despite countless of reminders from myself. What should I do? Just move on. I don't want to think anymore. Just not my possession.