Went back school for D&D Meeting. And as usual, people are late. I think Im kinda getting very annoyed with this. Why can't people be punctual. Do they even know what's punctuality? I really dislike people who takes their time, being wishy-washy, doing things as they like. Do you know that one minute is so important and crucial that it can determine the life and death of a person? Well, we seriously got to kick away this bad habit of coming in late.

I don't know why, but it seems to me that this meeting is always quite solemn. Everyone's face is written, Im so tired and Im so not interested. I still can't see or feel the passion in everyone, including myself. I think we aren't getting anywhere yet. It's still stuck to the ground, at the same old spot. I hope, we can move further and better during the next meeting.

Had KFC for lunch, and I think I regretted. Not as nice as I thought it would be. But the bandito pocket was piping hot and I like! haha. Headed off to Jurong Spring straight after and I had an awesome workout with coach. However, I wasn't very satisfied though. I guess it was due to the lack of stamina after stopping training for a month and the momentum was lost. Wait till next semester timetable is out, I shall arrange a date with Coach for training every week. I need to get back that passion and then I'll continue working on weekends. Nice. With the thought of it, Im pretty much happy with the upcoming lifestyle. School everyday, one training weekly on weekdays and work on weekends. hahaha. I'll be quite occupied with several things and that's life. You can't be asking me to rot it away like Im doing now. Im hell not gonna do that. Every minute is precious to me. I need to use it wisely. :D

Alot of things are happening right now. Every single day, good and the bad things just keep on recurring. I just hope they really come out from that shit and brace themselves. Yes, I always say, we have the right to change our fate, somehow, when you face certain things in life, you just got to take it with stride. No one should be found guilty in this whole thing, but rather, I have to say it that, there's a price to pay for every risk taken. Risks like, you chose to fall in love. I know, this is all so difficult. Why not just end this and come off with a clean break. I bet it'd be best for everyone involved, rather than dragging the matter which further deepens their wound. It just hurt even more, more than you can imagine. You don't try to kill them softly, show them some mercy.

For me, I remember a couple of days ago, I felt like I was being possessed. I couldnt control my heart and my mind from having wild imagination. It just pains me and I was on the verge of crying. Thank goodness, I held back, because I told myself, I'd never shed a tear over matters like that. Would this person even know? I was thinking of plucking that courage from somewhere and just tell you. But Im afraid, I still don't dare to. This is all so discouraging. Right now, I just want work to numb myself till I get better as the day goes. Nothing is too hard to get over with.