Time check, it's 5.20am. And I think I didn't sleep for the whole night.

I know, my friends have been saying that Im very emo. Just to let you guys know, I don't like myself behaving this way either. The Stephanie Nah whom my friends knew was never like this, perhaps, there was once, I was in the same situation Im stranded in right now. That was two years ago. I don't like the thoughts of posting unhappy stuff on my blogs and even on my facebook status. But sometimes, they're the only things which I can confide in. I hope to be away and please give me some time to sort out everything. I want this to be the last time Im ever gonna write stuffs like that. I promise that Stephanie Nah will be back in no time for a good cause. I don't want to get so affected because I can get nothing right when I can only see you.

I never knew, never knew you read those entries of mine. It seems like you knew what was going through my mind and I don't get yours at all. Perhaps, this don't matter at all now.

I've been wondering for the whole night. Whatever that happened seems surreal. Like you, I have so many things going through my head right now and I really got no ideas of how Im feeling as a human. I have so much of a mix-feelings that I've got numbed and I asked myself, when was the last time I felt truly happy. I was hoping I could cry my lungs out yesterday night but I couldn't. I didn't know how to feel anymore. This pain is too much. Excruciating much. Someone, take this pain away.

This is third time of the month that I couldn't sleep because of you.
I keep telling myself everything will be okay and that is the only thing I could say to comfort myself.

I want my friends not to question me after reading this.