Why am I having this feeling again?
I think Im under immense stress. So stress that I was about to break down in studio yesterday (I just recalled this) I remember those days during O-levels, sometimes, I would weep under my blanket and then just fell asleep. Because I was just too stress.

I think I have to learn to let go. If people are able to do last minute, then I think I can do that too. I need to be a little laid back. I need to relax. I need to breathe like a normal human being.

Please understand that I won't be very nice for the following two weeks. I may show you black face, or I'll have some attitude problems, please don't take it to heart and just don't talk to me. I promise I'll be okay if you just leave me alone.

I just want to win so badly. Please just stay focus and walk through this.

Now, my tears are welling up unknowingly. Maybe sleep is the best solution now?